This is a weekly series of reflections regarding the day's meditation (reading) in The Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie that is read aloud at the CoDependents Anonymous (CoDA) meetings I attend. Read more posts from this series of Reflections.
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FEB 16 Meditation:
From The Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie
The concept of letting go can be confusing to many of us. When are we doing too much or trying too hard to control people and outcomes? When are we doing too little? When is what we’re doing an appropriate part of taking care of ourselves? What is our responsibility, and what isn’t?
These issues can challenge us whether we’ve been in recovery ten days or ten years. Sometimes, we may let go so much that we neglect responsibility to ourselves or others. Other times, we may cross the line from taking care of ourselves to controlling others and outcomes.
There is no rule book. But we don’t have to make ourselves crazy; we don’t have to be so afraid. We don’t have to do recovery perfectly. If it feels like we need to do a particular action, we can do it. If no action feels timely or inspired, don’t act on it.
Having and setting healthy limits—healthy boundaries—isn’t a tidy process. We can give ourselves permission to experiment, to make mistakes, to learn, to grow.
We can talk to people, ask questions, and question ourselves. If there’s something we need to do or learn, it will become apparent. Lessons don’t go away. If we’re not taking care of ourselves enough, we’ll see that. If we are being too controlling, we’ll grow to understand that too.
Things will work out. The way will become clear.
Today, I will take actions that appear appropriate. I will let go of the rest. I will strive for the balance between self-responsibility, responsibility to others, and letting go.
“When are we doing too much?… When are we doing too little?”
I have trouble ascertaining this a lot of the time. Especially in recent time, with regards to work, and my friendship with a fellow CoDA member.
When should I push on? When should I wait?
If I don’t take action, won’t there be no progress?
But I don’t want to be too pushy, because I know I will go into control-freak mode, and want to control people and outcomes.
I want to approach that CoDA friend and tell them I notice they’re behaving differently and to see if they’re ok. I can choose to wait and see; let things unfold on their own. Sometimes, pausing and waiting is necessary.
But how would I know how long to wait?
As such, Melody Beattie writes…
“There is no rule book… If it feels like we need to a particular action, we can do it. If no action feels timely or inspired, don’t act on it.”
WOW. Ok, so if I feel prompted to do something, do it. And if I don’t, I can just wait it out.
The Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie
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I struggle with this, because I get impatient to accomplish something. And if it takes too long, my interest simply fades…
“We can give ourselves permission to experiment, to make mistakes, to learn, to grow.”
This definitely addresses my fear of failure. I love the idea of experimenting. But at the same time, what if the experiment fails or comes to naught? I guess I realise I should always decide my own definition of when the outcome is good, or when the outcome needs improvement.
There is no absolute concept of Success or Failure – it is what I say it is. But more often than not, I don’t take the time to define it, so I get disappointed a lot even without having preset my expectations.
“If there is something we need to do or learn, it will become apparent. Lessons don’t go away…”
I think this is another way of saying we will keep making the same “mistakes” over and over again, until we learn from it.
Also, when the student is ready, the teacher is bound to appear.
“Things will work out. The way will become clear.”
Alright, I will embrace and own this promise!!!
Things will work out – we are part of a Grand Plan – god’s plan happens in spite of us and not because of us – trust the process.
Do you have any thoughts from this reading? Please feel free to share with me in the comments below, I’d love to discourse and exchange views with you 🙂