My hiatus – back to Blog plus CoDA 14 Day

I’M BACKKKK…..!

I’ve not been on the blog for some time.

I’ve also been stalling my CoDA 14 Day program.

Bloghalt…back to blog

I’ve gotten overwhelmed juggling my day job and maintaining my blog. I was on the blog a lot, and the various online marketing platforms a lot, and was neglecting my work.

I was also anxious to make it a second income stream for myself. I have posted affiliate links on certain pages. The Books and Natural Cures pages are some of them. (See affiliate disclosure here.)

I was not getting much traffic and any sales and I felt disheartened, and felt like I was doing everything wrong. Oneof my affiliate programs even expired. At first I was panicking. But later on, I decided that it was NOTthe end of the world if it did. Thankfully, I can simply re-apply for it, apparently. *fingers crossed*

But having so much to say has not changed. Since I had not come to the blog to write (there were so many time-consuming prerequisites like picking a good blog title and other blogging necessities), I ventured to Instagram. I ended up writing mini blog posts there. And I used Twitter when the need arose for immediate rants. And spurts of emotion or thoughts.

Hereare all my @girlintherapysocial channels so far:

Go knock yourself out on my brain farts on Twitter!

And I hope you enjoy the quotes pics/posters I created on Instagram!

Each pic is made with thoughtfulness and love. I sometimes create a few versions to see which I like best or suits the message best. (I intend toblog about thetools I use to make them.) I love to create and express myself visually. So this is a great outlet for me. They encapsulate my thoughts andI hope that people will share them because they can relate or find them helpful. So many share-worthy pics on Pinterest (which I’m not that familiar with), I hope to start my own trend of share-able pics on Instagram!

Other thoughts:

  1. The $0 that this blog has brought me (as a secondary income steam), I link it directly to my own failing. So the blog represents failure to me.
  2. If I was not getting any money here, I’d better spend more time on what actually can my day job. I’m self-employed, so no work, no income.
  3. I’m disappointed and disheartened, especially since I thought I have done all the right things to monetisethe blog. But a fellow CoDA sister told me, Codependents expect problems to resolve themselves immediately; we expect results on the spot!

When I think about it sensibly, I know I may see “success” at a later time, if I keep doing what I’m doing. For eg. my Instagram, I did not getmore than 10 Likes per post. It averaged on 5 - 6 Likes. Now I see 13, even without any hashtags! Now I call that an accomplishment!

The members of my online marketing course post about their successes often and I feel like I’mthe odd one out withnothing to report or shout about.

CoDA 14 Day program stall…

I honestly have no idea why I’ve been stalling on my 14-Day Program.

I’ve not really crystalised the reason. Until I think about it now.

I started in April but am only at Day 4 now 🙁

I technically finished Day 3 but I felt I somewhat skimmed over it. So I have not started work on Day 4, thought Day 4 is somewhat a repetition of Day 3.

Since I am posting my entire Day 1 to 14 here on the blog, I have Day 3 in draft but it’s incomplete at the moment.

A few possibilities:

  1. A new friend in recovery thinks putting my day job before my 14-Day and recovery blogging is putting the cart in front of the horse. I agree with his notion. But yet, I can’t say I can confidently put a finger on the reason.
  2. The art therapist I’m seeing is also an ADHD coach. (I’m not diagnosed but it’s highly likely that I have it.) She told me that ADHDers take some time to transit from one activity to another, more than “normal” people. This may beonereason why I have not “found time” to continue my 14-Day andblogging. ADHDers are also crap at time management – surprise, surprise.

Just a heads up, Day 3 is an epic endeavour, because it deals with characteristics and traits of Codependency. Thinking of fleshing it outalready feels daunting.

I think a sign of my recovery is not being anxious and feeling like a bad person for not being up to speed with my 14 Day progress. Yet at the same time, I don’t know if I’m subconsciously shielding myself from my own harsh thoughts of not doing what I’m supposed to. It’s like I cut myself some, no, ALL slack, for not pulling my socks up.

Conclusion

I work on too many things at any one time, because I’m a worse multi-tasker than I think. And then I will end up overwhelmed and shutting down, and shutting things out.

I have to learn tobalance out everything, and not end up ignoring one thing for another.

I have to disassociate failure from my blog.

I have to get back on track with my 14 Day program, because I really want to get on with my 12 Step program at some point.

I hope you will be there when I do.I hope to meet others like myself in recovery through my blog. I hope my blog provides respite of some sort for others in recovery. I hope you will realise you are not alone in whatever you’re going through. I hope you will find useful and helpful stuff on here. And there will be fun stuff too. Not just stuff that’s sad and depressing. I want to empower people, like how some others have given me strength.

I’ve so much stuff I want to write about!!! I hope you are looking forward to them as much as I am!

8 comments

  1. lex says:

    the part where you said * I have to learn to balance out everything, and not end up ignoring one thing for another.*

    speaks volume to me more, just balance things out and see the difference, life can be a puzzle sometimea.

  2. Tiffany VanSickle says:

    I, too, take on more than I should! I just resigned from HOA President and Pool Caretaker for our neighborhood pool. I never realized how much stress it was for me the past 2 years until it was gone!!! I also have yet to make more than $2.05 from blogging, and have gotten very discouraged, but I’m not going to let it get to me!!! I will be praying for your progress!

  3. Mike says:

    I really understand how you feel girl. I’m basically addicted to multi-tasking; once I begin, there is no stop. I will always do it in real life matters, work, video games, I can’t help but want to do everything at the same time and in the end the results aren’t always what I would like to. I guess we all have to relax a little.
    Thank you for sharing and blessings!

    • Girl says:

      Thanks Mike, I appreciate your thoughts 🙂 Yeah, I have a tendency to want to “do it all” too! Like you said – everything, at the same time!!!

      I’m glad I’m not alone in this. In ADHD, there’s such a thing as hyperfocus… Not sure if that’s what’s happening with me 😉 And yes, relaxing is hard for me, but I’m definitely learning how…

  4. Lindsey at Blog Me Lovely says:

    I too work on too many things at a time. This is why in my 6 years blogging I have switched things up so many times and have not made a dime.

    I have finally got in a rhythm and am so close to actually monetizing my new blog. Sometimes a blog break is just needed!

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