Surrender – Let Go and Let God (or Higher Power)

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I always attribute any lack of success to myself. I will think it’s because I was inadequate or my direct doing that led to the “failure”… I do not attribute any deciding factor to other people (potential clients). I will always think it’s 100% my doing that led to them deciding not to buy/explore buying.

I guess this is my mistake and downfall. I put the entire blame on myself. So I carry the whole weight of the “failure” on my own shoulders.

I mean it’s not always “about me”. There are multiple reasons why the sale didn’t go through… And I must recognise and acknowledge that.

Instead of thinking it’s *always me* (Low Self Esteem patterns in Codependency), I need to surrender and know that what will be will be.

There’s a saying: “Gods will most often happens in spite of us, not because of us.” I need to remember that.

So that I won’t beat myself up to a pulp inside. So that I will learn to be kind to myself. So that I know whatever happens is as intended by my Higher Power.

And my time will come. My time to shine, my time of achievement, my time of “success”.

2 comments

  1. Sue Bride says:

    I used to feel just the same, blaming myself and comparing myself unfavorably with others. Low self-esteem sucks. In fact I can relate to many of your problems and the resulting affect on your life and relationships.

    It took me until I was older than you to seek help but, once I found the right help, it was life changing. I also found out that my tendency to anxiety, social anxiety, depression, ADT, and some obsessiveness is due to a genetic fault. (They are symptoms of being a carrier of Fragile X Syndrome – something my son is affected by.) Once I knew that I stopped blaming myself.

    I hope you find the solutions you are searching for. Please don’t give up trying. Above all, don’t feel guilty.

    • Girl says:

      Wow, thanks Sue. I’ve never heard of the Fragile X Syndrome! I will go find out more…

      I’m grateful for your sharing on how you can relate, and also your encouragement. Thank you so much! 🙂

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