My hiatus – back to Blog plus CoDA 14 Day

I’M BACKKKK…..!

I’ve not been on the blog for some time.

I’ve also been stalling my CoDA 14 Day program.

Blog halt…back to blog

I’ve gotten overwhelmed juggling my day job and maintaining my blog. I was on the blog a lot, and the various online marketing platforms a lot, and was neglecting my work.

I was also anxious to make it a second income stream for myself. I have posted affiliate links on certain pages. The Books and Natural Cures pages are some of them. (See affiliate disclosure here.)

I was not getting much traffic and any sales and I felt disheartened, and felt like I was doing everything wrong. One of my affiliate programs even expired. At first I was panicking. But later on, I decided that it was NOT the end of the world if it did. Thankfully, I can simply re-apply for it, apparently. *fingers crossed*

But having so much to say has not changed. Since I had not come to the blog to write (there were so many time-consuming prerequisites like picking a good blog title and other blogging necessities), I ventured to Instagram. I ended up writing mini blog posts there. And I used Twitter when the need arose for immediate rants. And spurts of emotion or thoughts.

Here are all my @girlintherapy social channels so far:

Go knock yourself out on my brain farts on Twitter!

And I hope you enjoy the quotes pics/posters I created on Instagram!

Each pic is made with thoughtfulness and love. I sometimes create a few versions to see which I like best or suits the message best. (I intend to blog about the tools I use to make them.) I love to create and express myself visually. So this is a great outlet for me. They encapsulate my thoughts and I hope that people will share them because they can relate or find them helpful. So many share-worthy pics on Pinterest (which I’m not that familiar with), I hope to start my own trend of share-able pics on Instagram!

Other thoughts:

  1. The $0 that this blog has brought me (as a secondary income steam), I link it directly to my own failing. So the blog represents failure to me.
  2. If I was not getting any money here, I’d better spend more time on what actually can — my day job. I’m self-employed, so no work, no income.
  3. I’m disappointed and disheartened, especially since I thought I have done all the right things to monetise the blog. But a fellow CoDA sister told me, Codependents expect problems to resolve themselves immediately; we expect results on the spot!

When I think about it sensibly, I know I may see “success” at a later time, if I keep doing what I’m doing. For eg. my Instagram, I did not get more than 10 Likes per post. It averaged on 5  – 6 Likes. Now I see 13, even without any hashtags! Now I call that an accomplishment!

The members of my online marketing course post about their successes often and I feel like I’m the odd one out with nothing to report or shout about.

CoDA 14 Day program stall…

I honestly have no idea why I’ve been stalling on my 14-Day Program.

I’ve not really crystalised the reason. Until I think about it now.

I started in April but am only at Day 4 now 🙁

I technically finished Day 3 but I felt I somewhat skimmed over it. So I have not started work on Day 4, thought Day 4 is somewhat a repetition of Day 3.

Since I am posting my entire Day 1 to 14 here on the blog, I have Day 3 in draft but it’s incomplete at the moment.

A few possibilities:

  1. A new friend in recovery thinks putting my day job before my 14-Day and recovery blogging is putting the cart in front of the horse. I agree with his notion. But yet, I can’t say I can confidently put a finger on the reason.
  2. The art therapist I’m seeing is also an ADHD coach. (I’m not diagnosed but it’s highly likely that I have it.) She told me that ADHDers take some time to transit from one activity to another, more than “normal” people. This may be one reason why I have not “found time” to continue my 14-Day and blogging. ADHDers are also crap at time management – surprise, surprise.

Just a heads up, Day 3 is an epic endeavour, because it deals with characteristics and traits of Codependency. Thinking of fleshing it out already feels daunting.

I think a sign of my recovery is not being anxious and feeling like a bad person for not being up to speed with my 14 Day progress. Yet at the same time, I don’t know if I’m subconsciously shielding myself from my own harsh thoughts of not doing what I’m supposed to. It’s like I cut myself some, no, ALL slack, for not pulling my socks up.

Conclusion

I work on too many things at any one time, because I’m a worse multi-tasker than I think. And then I will end up overwhelmed and shutting down, and shutting things out.

I have to learn to balance out everything, and not end up ignoring one thing for another.

I have to disassociate failure from my blog.

I have to get back on track with my 14 Day program, because I really want to get on with my 12 Step program at some point.

I hope you will be there when I do. I hope to meet others like myself in recovery through my blog.  I hope my blog provides respite of some sort for others in recovery. I hope you will realise you are not alone in whatever you’re going through. I hope you will find useful and helpful stuff on here. And there will be fun stuff too. Not just stuff that’s sad and depressing. I want to empower people, like how some others have given me strength.

I’ve so much stuff I want to write about!!! I hope you are looking forward to them as much as I am!




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8 comments

  1. lex says:

    the part where you said * I have to learn to balance out everything, and not end up ignoring one thing for another.*

    speaks volume to me more, just balance things out and see the difference, life can be a puzzle sometimea.