You Are Doing The Best You Can

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You are doing the best you can

This week I felt lost and yesterday it was mostly apathy and disinterest.

I was concerned – is this my Depression acting up?

Being encouraged by my Etsy shop, I’m trying to start a label selling quote magnets as a small local business.

It has not gone on that well. A lot of the time I’ve been crippled by fear of failure and the pointlessness of it all. (Though I’ve got to give myself a pat on the back because I managed to meet a buyer of a local chain in Jan, though he has been slow on follow up – which also contributes to my paralysing fear and sense of worthlessness.)

Today as I rushed to the CoDA meeting, a thought flashed across my mind:

You are doing the best you can.

This is definitely not from me, because it’s not my first instinct to reassure myself. I figured this was Higher Power stuff…! Divinely inspired.

I think my Higher Power speaks to me in quotes. I read so many on IG daily, and I store them here; it’s like I have my personal bag of quotes! So my HP pulled out one to comfort me.

I’ve not accepted it yet though; I always am the hardest on myself, and think my best is never good enough.

Nonetheless the message I got was: even with feeling lost, apathetic, disinterested… this is the best I can manage for now. I am doing the best I can.

 

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12 comments

  1. catacosmosis profile image
    catacosmosis says:

    @girlintherapy yeah… It makes me wonder what to do about it, though. One of the people – the main one – isn’t even in my life anymore. The other one is my husband. And I only realized that this morning when I was journaling about my fears about my health. I’m feeling truly disturbed since that. I’m definitely aware and conscious. But it’s becoming painful… So I repeat that mantra again – “you’re doing the best you can.” ️?

  2. girlintherapy profile image
    girlintherapy says:

    Awareness/consciousness is a gift. And it’s my belief that we are only “able” to see/hear things when we are ready. Prior that we would be in voluntary or involuntary denial. So I guess you being able to identify who and what, that’s you being ready, being armed with the gift of awareness/consciousness ️ @catacosmosis

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    catacosmosis says:

    I’ve only just realized, from your comment, that I am still carrying that (my above comment). It’s interesting to me how it was so crystal clear to me, though – almost instantly I knew the source. That’s got to mean something progressive and good, right? ️

  4. catacosmosis profile image
    catacosmosis says:

    @girlintherapy you are just about spot on… It only started a few years ago, when I allowed myself for the first time in my life to believe the things that a single, fleeting person in my life told me. “Funny” what we do when we love someone else more than we love ourselves; what we will allow, what we will endure… And then, only to be thrown away… So. Yes. Spot on, dear. I lost myself. I haven’t quite found me again, yet. ?️

  5. girlintherapy profile image
    girlintherapy says:

    @catacosmosis Thank you so much for your kind words about my posts. I’m also blessed to have met you – someone who lives fiercely from the heart. Someone whom I know will tell it like it is. Yes you are doing your best – you don’t have to fall apart for others. Your fear of success does remind me of a lack of self-confidence or self-love, because you may not think you are deserving of success or attention? And maybe you were programmed to think any attention is bad? Just sharing my thoughts…

  6. girlintherapy profile image
    girlintherapy says:

    @younfolded Thanks! “To look at how far I’ve come instead of focusing on how much more I’ve got to go” – YESSS! I often fail to do that, and whenever I do, I don’t give it enough emphasis. Your reply actually inspires a new quote that comes to mind… Will tag you if I post it 🙂

  7. catacosmosis profile image
    catacosmosis says:

    I am. I really am. It may not seem like it other people and it may be something they are inconvenienced by but it’s all I can do. They’ll get over it or they won’t. I don’t really care what they do at this point. I am just happy if I get through the day without falling apart or throwing up (because of a chronic digestive problem I have). If I can manage those two things I happily call the day a success. I understand the fear of failure thing, except for me it’s fear is success. As soon as my photography and my blog start being “successful” I always end up changing the name/link and starting over. I desperately want to share but I desperately don’t want to be noticed. I know that makes NO SENSE. Nonetheless, different things but the same in how crippling they can be, I think. Sending you my love and support. I believe that whatever you want to do, you can do. And whatever you DO do, one way or the other, I support you because either way you make my world a better place to be just by being in it. So happy to have connected with you here. Your posts encourage and support me so much. ️️

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