You are doing the best you can
This week I felt lost and yesterday it was mostly apathy and disinterest.
I was concerned – is this my Depression acting up?
Being encouraged by my Etsy shop, I’m trying to start a label selling quote magnets as a small local business.
It has not gone on that well. A lot of the time I’ve been crippled by fear of failure and the pointlessness of it all. (Though I’ve got to give myself a pat on the back because I managed to meet a buyer of a local chain in Jan, though he has been slow on follow up – which also contributes to my paralysing fear and sense of worthlessness.)
Today as I rushed to the CoDA meeting, a thought flashed across my mind:
You are doing the best you can.
This is definitely not from me, because it’s not my first instinct to reassure myself. I figured this was Higher Power stuff…! Divinely inspired.
I think my Higher Power speaks to me in quotes. I read so many on IG daily, and I store them here; it’s like I have my personal bag of quotes! So my HP pulled out one to comfort me.
I’ve not accepted it yet though; I always am the hardest on myself, and think my best is never good enough.
Nonetheless the message I got was: even with feeling lost, apathetic, disinterested… this is the best I can manage for now. I am doing the best I can.
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@girlintherapy yeah… It makes me wonder what to do about it, though. One of the people – the main one – isn’t even in my life anymore. The other one is my husband. And I only realized that this morning when I was journaling about my fears about my health. I’m feeling truly disturbed since that. I’m definitely aware and conscious. But it’s becoming painful… So I repeat that mantra again – “you’re doing the best you can.” ️?
Awareness/consciousness is a gift. And it’s my belief that we are only “able” to see/hear things when we are ready. Prior that we would be in voluntary or involuntary denial. So I guess you being able to identify who and what, that’s you being ready, being armed with the gift of awareness/consciousness ️ @catacosmosis
I’ve only just realized, from your comment, that I am still carrying that (my above comment). It’s interesting to me how it was so crystal clear to me, though – almost instantly I knew the source. That’s got to mean something progressive and good, right? ️
@girlintherapy you are just about spot on… It only started a few years ago, when I allowed myself for the first time in my life to believe the things that a single, fleeting person in my life told me. “Funny” what we do when we love someone else more than we love ourselves; what we will allow, what we will endure… And then, only to be thrown away… So. Yes. Spot on, dear. I lost myself. I haven’t quite found me again, yet. ?️
@catacosmosis Thank you so much for your kind words about my posts. I’m also blessed to have met you – someone who lives fiercely from the heart. Someone whom I know will tell it like it is. Yes you are doing your best – you don’t have to fall apart for others. Your fear of success does remind me of a lack of self-confidence or self-love, because you may not think you are deserving of success or attention? And maybe you were programmed to think any attention is bad? Just sharing my thoughts…
@younfolded Thanks! “To look at how far I’ve come instead of focusing on how much more I’ve got to go” – YESSS! I often fail to do that, and whenever I do, I don’t give it enough emphasis. Your reply actually inspires a new quote that comes to mind… Will tag you if I post it 🙂
@divine_lotustemple Thanks! You too
@workmanlawfirm Thank you so much. I wish you the same encouragement 🙂
So inspiring! I’m constantly reminded to look at how far I’ve come instead of focusing on how much more I’ve got to go. HP stuff indeed?
Thanks for this one! Have a great day!
Good for you. You are doing your best. That is wonderful
I am. I really am. It may not seem like it other people and it may be something they are inconvenienced by but it’s all I can do. They’ll get over it or they won’t. I don’t really care what they do at this point. I am just happy if I get through the day without falling apart or throwing up (because of a chronic digestive problem I have). If I can manage those two things I happily call the day a success. I understand the fear of failure thing, except for me it’s fear is success. As soon as my photography and my blog start being “successful” I always end up changing the name/link and starting over. I desperately want to share but I desperately don’t want to be noticed. I know that makes NO SENSE. Nonetheless, different things but the same in how crippling they can be, I think. Sending you my love and support. I believe that whatever you want to do, you can do. And whatever you DO do, one way or the other, I support you because either way you make my world a better place to be just by being in it. So happy to have connected with you here. Your posts encourage and support me so much. ️️